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WHERE THE HELL HAVE I BEEN?

Almost 5 months…. sorry. That’s a new record for me being lazy.

This post is gonna be completely honest so I’ll start by saying I just haven’t been feeling like blogging in a long time. I nearly gave up on writing this post multiple times.

Today marks an important day in my life, I’m free from education!

Today I sat my last exam and finished sixth form which seemed like a far fetched dream a year ago, I wasn’t sure I’d make it out alive. A-levels drained me so bad, no one gives people enough credit for getting through it.

I also passed my driving test yesterday morning after 2 previous failed attempts which I am so pleased about because I was starting to think I’d never do it.

I don’t have anything else to say, not that much has happened. I turned 18,got myself some new besties and planned some really fun summer trips before uni in September. I’m also going back into performing this summer which will be great.

I’ll keep you updated.

Abby x

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Should you go to University?

It’s drilled into our heads throughout our education that it is expected of us to go to university and get a degree before getting a job. It’s not until it actually comes to applying for university that you realise for yourself that actually it isn’t necessary and there is a lot more that you could be doing with your life. That then leads to the question that I think everybody asks themselves, should I go to university?

Unfortunately, I can’t answer that question for you, everyone is different and what may be right for you may be different for someone else. You have to assess your situation and discover whether or not university would be best for you. I thought that I’d share with you my process of deciding to go to university and the application process so far. Hopefully my experiences will help you when deciding what is right.

I’ve always said that I was going to go to uni, I thought I had to! Until I was 15 and finishing my GCSE’s I didn’t know that colleges, apprenticeships and internships were a legitimate thing that you could do. I’m not sure if it was the overly academic focused school that I went to or just the area that I grew up in but my education was all about getting the high grades to move on to the next stage of education. When I decided not to go to my secondary school’s sixth form and go to an independent one in the city centre, thats when I saw a new side to education. Everyone was so different, equality was celebrated and you were encouraged to achieve whatever it was that you wanted to do in life (and get the grades to achieve it obviously). It was more fun and as I’m here moping around because one of my teachers is leaving on Friday I’m realising how much I’ve enjoyed my past two years at the sixth form. That’s how education should be, fun and enjoyable. This is what inspired my decision to apply for social universities rather than the Russell group academic, high achievers universities. If you would prefer to attend these universities, go ahead and apply! As long as you work hard for it then theres nothing to stop you going but you have to look at your history with education and evaluate whether you’ll enjoy that, after all it is the next 3 or more years of your life.

I have applied for Film and Media based degrees as this is the subject that I’m most passionate about and I would love to work in social media or journalism when I graduate. I’m not too sure what specific profession I’d like to go into so don’t ask me, the main reason I’m going to uni is to give me more time to think about that. If you need more time then why not apply for a subject you love, even if you think its unlikely that you’ll get a job in that subject. I personally think that its better to have the time to think and get a degree in anything rather than have a gap in your life of not doing anything and not knowing where to go from there, I’m sure employers in the future will agree with me on that one. Of course its not impossible to get a good job without a degree but it does provide some security as most employers do look for a degree on your CV.

Actually applying for university is an extensive and stressful activity but UCAS makes it as simple as possible. Next week I will be confirming my film and insurance offers which is nerve-wracking as I haven’t fully decided yet. Everything has to be taken into account, one uni might have a good course but shocking accommodation, another may be in the most perfect town ever but have a weak course, which sacrifice do you make?

The point of this article is to ensure you that its completely normal to not know yet, everyone has doubts and indecisiveness when it comes to one of the biggest decisions of your life, of course its stressful! Looking online for people in the same situation is great therapy for this and there are so many great sources for advise such as thestudentroom.com which comes from students themselves from the past and future.

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The journey starts now.

So some of you may have noticed that I’ve taken basically a month off blogging and off this website in general. This does not mean its over, far from it. After a rocky adjustment in to this year and a lot of planning about where my life will take me this year, I’m finally ready to start this process.

This journey starts now.

I thought I’d share with you just exactly what this journey will be, so you can keep up to date if you wish.

Let’s start with the major change that will be happening in my life this year, school. At the moment I am in my final year of further education. I’ve done compulsory school (GCSE’s) and my first year of A-Levels. In June of this year I will sit this years exams, there’s only 6 in total and they are all over in a matter of 4 weeks. From June 23rd I am officially finished with this and I have my Summer period until September. In early August my family will be holidaying in Norfolk, UK, not an out of country holiday this year but a more meaningful one to celebrate my last weeks living with my family full time. We’ve been to Norfolk many a time and I’m beyond excited to show you all the fun places we go when we’re there.

In September I will be going to University. This will either be Stirling University (if I obtain BBC grades in my exams) or York St. John if I don’t. I have been lucky enough to receive 2 conditional offers and 2 unconditional from my top choice universities and I am so happy that I can start a new beginning in a new city with new people come September.

Now let’s talk about this blog and where its going. I will be aiming to post every Tuesday and Thursday. I will continue to post about beauty, lifestyle and fashion but I also want to document the changes in my life within my diet, body, health/ fitness and obviously what I’m up to. So expect every post to be a little different. Also I will be posting every Saturday on mytrendingstories.com, the link to my profile will be at the bottom of this post.

Okay so my life has already changed this year for sure and I’m so excited to continue these changes. I’ve been out more, met up and rekindled friendships with old friends who I miss oh so much and as I type this, I’m reminiscing old memories with one of my old best friends who I haven’t talked to in years. I’ve had no drama, no fall outs, no arguments and I’m happier than ever! Also, I’ll be taking my drivers test in March, so if you’d like I could write a post about the experience of learning and what I did to pass my theory/ practical when I pass it.

Lastly, I want to discuss my physical changes happening this year. I’m finally committing to it, I’m gonna do it. I’m going to buy my fitness gear and get this show on the road. I don’t necessarily want to lose massive amounts of weight but I want to be at a point where I’m happy, healthy and confident in my body. This will be done with a big shift in my diet, which will be regularly documented on this blog (along with tips and recipes) and also with exercise which I will be working hard on this year. This will also be documented on here. In terms of my appearance, I’m working on developing a skin routine to share with you guys that really works (I think I’ve got one) as I know many people, including myself, struggle with acne and would prefer to get rid of it! I also want to change my hair in the summer, asI did with the ombre last summer, and I want to be more daring with a new wardrobe.

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Deadlines.

Deadlines are scary right?

My deadline for my final media coursework is tomorrow, I’m actually upset about it seen as I’ve done sooooo much work towards it since June. Research after research on a topic that I really started to get bored of, but the past few weeks I’ve rediscovered my love for it and I’ve been working really hard on my work towards it. I chose to study Wes Anderson as an auteur director, and how he defies genres. This was pretty hard to find research on but in the end I got there, it was keeping it in the word limit that was the problem. God I bloody love es Anderson. Someone asked me the other day what was my favourite Wes Anderson film? And I actually couldn’t choose, thats like asking a mother to pick her favourite child. Its probably Moonrise Kingdom or The Darjeeling Limited but I don’t know, I just don’t know.

My EPQ deadline is slowly getting closer. And by slowly I mean quickly and I’m panicking. My English coursework is also due in soon, God help me. I hate deadlines, I hate coursework, I hate stress but I do love time off and tomorrow is the last day of term before Christmas!!

I’m going to end this post here due to the fact that its just sunk in that the deadline is TOMORROW, I need to do some more work and its already 9.30pm, God help me! Goodnight x

Till tomorrow,

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Pictures that represent me.

Just a warning, this will be a picture heavy post.

I was reading a blog yesterday and she had done a tag where you select some of your favourite photos of yourself to represent you and I thought it was cute so I’m doing it 🙂

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This is my cousins and I doing a cute family photoshoot. I think I was 4 years old here, cute!! Safe to say we all look a tad different now.

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An extremely cute pic of me and my dad when I was very young (around 3/4) and I had an afro 🙂 This is one of my fave pics ever!

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Me and my oldest friend Charlotte when we were around 2 years old on a holiday in Holland #nipslip (i’m on the bed with my fave winnie the pooh cap).

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Missing just a few years haha, this was 2011 when I was 11 years old sledging at the park with my sister Emily. What you can’t tell from this pic is that we smashed into a brick wall at the end of the slope and I cried because I nearly broke my ankle. Fun times.

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This was one of my best memories from school. Me and my friend Rachel collected dirty bottle tops from around the school (even went into some bins) for a project, I’ve never laughed so hard. P.s. We never ended up using any of them for the project but at least it made for a good memory.

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I love this pic!! This was in year 9 when my friends Hannah, Ellen and I made a video at lunch being silly and this was the exact moment that we realised that the teacher had caught us. Check out Hannah’s northern soul bag (we were all the rage).

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That time me and a possessed Hannah delivered a cardboard cutout of Niall Horan to our friend via bus, we got a lot of funny looks that day!!

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This was on the way to a theme park for a school trip in year 8 with my friend Caileigh. Back when facepaint was cool. blugh.. cringe. p.s. dem eyebrows

When Charlotte and I (10 years later) did a yoga pose before dance class and failed miserably!

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Yes, we’re still this weird. We were 14 in this picture and evidently, very mature.

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Back when I used to make Charlotte do photoshoots with me haha what am I looking at?

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My acting debut 🙂 Mary and I doing our thing in the Pantomime.

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My first trip to London when I was 14 with Mary and Bethany from dancing, love you guys x

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Hannah and I being weird part 2, a year later.

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My 2nd time in London with friends outside Madame Tussards 🙂

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My last day of year 11 and at my secondary school. Ellie (on the right) had been a friend of mine since we were 3 years old, we were in the same dance class!

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My brother Ben and I on holiday in Fuerteventura in 2015 aka my favourite holiday ever.

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The first ever picture of me and one of my best friends Amy in year 10.

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A very blurry but hilarious picture of me and my sister in the car on the way to my Aunty’s wedding reception after the service. The car was so packed that someone’s suitcase had to be plonked on top of me. This was taken mid roundabout.

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Last but not least, a picture of me and Maddie (from some of my previous posts inc. my first one), who I adore. This was just after my 17th birthday this year when we went to meet Kian and Jc. We were more excited than we look on this picture.

That’s it for this post. I thoroughly enjoyed doing this, I hope it wasn’t boring. Sorry it’s not beauty or fashion or whatever but I wanted to try something different. Hope you found some of these as funny as I do. If not, heres a pic of me from that same holiday in Holland when I got stuck down  a slide and instead of helping little terrified me, my parents took videos and pictures of me. img_1486

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How to clean a beauty blender.

The last thing you want to happen to you on a cold, early morning is for your bedroom light to pop.. Welcome to my life. Luckily I had some extra time this morning to get ready (thank the lord for late starts at sixth form) and so I took my makeup across the hall to the bathroom which had a working source of light.

Whilst I was in there I decided to wash (or at least attempt) my trusty Real Techniques beauty blender sponge.

Easier said then done.

I attempted to get some of the foundation and concealer out of it by just squeezing it under running water but it didn’t exactly work. I got very messy hands, the water scolded my skin and my sponge swelled to the size of a freaking orange. I had a lot of product left in the sponge but I decided it was best to stop there before I ripped it. You see I don’t have an en suite or a source of water in my bedroom where I do my makeup each morning, so I very rarely wash it, mainly because of time limits but partially because i can’t be bothered. Safe to say it was this morning that made me realise the importance of regularly washing your makeup brushes and sponges.

When I had some spare time I searched on google to find someone who had had the same problems as me, so that I felt a tad less like a twat and I found a few don’t worry (we aren’t alone). I saw a lot of gag worthy pictures of mouldy beauty blenders and ones that had far too much product in them and that was when I decided 1- to stop searching for mouldy beauty blender pictures, and 2- to try a method of cleaning mine when I got home.

Luckily I have younger siblings and baby products seem to be gentle yet effective enough to clean anything makeup related. I grabbed some Johnsons baby wash which is available at drugstores and also supermarkets at a cheap price and added s little to a bowl of warm water. I added enough that there were a few bubbles and mixed it in to the water until you could feel the product in the water (if that makes sense? basically when I took my hand out the water I could feel the soap on my hands). I then used my previous squeezing method until the makeup started to come out. Do not squeeze the sponge too hard or it will rip, I learned that the hard way with my first one. When most of the makeup was out and the sponge returned to its orange sized form, I got as much water as possible out by hand, set it on a towel and left it for a few hours by a partially opened window (to air dry it). Do not put it in an enclosed space like a makeup bag or drawer when its wet because apparently that’s how the bacteria grow which causes mould. After a while, mine took around and hour, it should return to its normal size and should feel almost fully dry. Try to keep it out in open space until its fully dry just in case, beauty blenders ain’t cheap.

That’s all I did, simple I know but if anyone else was struggling with this issue then I hope I could be of some use with this post. Now its time for me to actually take off my makeup, which may I add is the worst task in the world, and return to watching how to get away with murder wooo. Goodnight.

Till next time,

Abby x

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Being Different.

So here’s the thing with me… I’m not like everyone else.

I’m not an outcast, I have friends, I go to school, I have a social life and most importantly I’m happy (little stressed and overwhelmed but happy nevertheless).

I’m not stereotyping people my age by any means but as a 17 year old I feel like my interests don’t lie with my demographics. By this I mean I don’t get drunk, I don’t party through the night, I don’t get in to clubs underage and I don’t use drugs.

I feel like nowadays, this is how you make friends. Of course it is, it gives you a subject to talk about and laugh about but it kinda just makes me feel uncomfortable. I couldn’t imagine myself at house parties getting drunk with people from school and doing stuff that I probably shouldn’t be doing, ever. It’s just not my scene, not my thing. It also differentiates me from most of my family, they get drunk and are always trying to force it down my neck when ever there’s a family event and for some reason they just don’t understand that I don’t want it.

I’m not against drinking, or getting drunk for that matter but for me it’ll come in its own time. I’m not going to drink my life away I mean its not even legal for me to at this age anyways. Does this make me a loser because I’m following the law, am I a loser because I don’t want to do stuff that makes me uncomfortable? Apparently so.

I’ve never understood the fascination with alcohol to be honest, maybe that’ll change when I go to university but I can function well enough without it and I will be until I feel ready to change, even if it means making myself stand out at every family event for the next year. I just don’t like it when someone offers me a drink, I feel guilty, I don’t know if I want it or am allowed it, it stresses me out and makes me really anxious and so I look ridiculous standing then stressing and sweating in front of whoever it is trying to pressure me in to it.

I don’t have many friends that are in to that sort of life either. We aren’t addicted to the sesh and we don’t try to get into clubs underage, that doesn’t mean we’re prude or stuck up it just means its not our comfort zone  and we would rather not be there.  Who knows if that will change later in my life, this time next year I’ll have hopefully survived freshers week and will most likely be at clubs with my new friends but for now I’m just trying to enjoy my last year of my childhood (even though I couldn’t feel more like a granny right now).

I would love to go to festivals and clubs and have a great social life but that time is not right now and I’m a firm believer of waiting until you know the time is right, because you always know whats best for yourself. For now I’ll carry on daydreaming about my aspirations and getting excited for my turnaround in the coming year.

Don’t feel pressured into drinking or the use of drugs, trust me its better to sacrifice the losers who pressure you and sacrifice being popular or whatever the pressure is. If you aren’t comfortable with something then remove yourself from the situation no matter what the consequences are because no one deserves to be forced in to any situation that they don’t want to be in. You knows what’s best for yourself and if that makes you different well then… join the fucking club.

Hope you enjoyed this post, I’m currently planning more. As always I’d love feedback.

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A new start.

Three months have passed since my last post, I’m very sorry.

This year has been the hardest year of my life so far. I’ve been working and thinking non stop since January and I haven’t taken much time off to actually look after myself. I’ve started year 13, the last year of school before University and boy Joe it’s hard. I’m up to my neck in coursework and mock exams, my social life has gone out the window and my health has gone downhill pretty sharpish. Deadlines here, open days there, I’m tired! Really, really tired!!

This is a new start for me. From now until new years I will be working on improving my life, taking things slowly and learning how to cope with a fast paced and jam packed lifestyle. By new years I want to be ready to start a fresh page and get in to the spirit of University.

The new start begins here with this blog. I love it, it’s like my little child and even if no one ever reads it, I want it to look back at later in life. Blogging is such a great invention and not something that I want to stop any time soon so look out for more frequent posts, this time I promise it will happen!

I’m currently trying to juggle 3 A- levels in English Language, Media and Religious studies, two of which contain coursework and on top of that I’m doing EPQ. To add to that I’m learning to drive (just passed my theory test wooo!), I’m waiting for offers from 5 universities and I’m dealing with mental health and life issues. I have no spare time and that really takes a toll on you, make up free and comfy clothes days are becoming the norm but I honestly couldn’t care less, gives me an extra 15 mins in bed.

I’ll be doing multiple posts on whats going on in my life because I don’t want to offload everything in to this post. Its been 3 months what the hell I actually can’t believe it, the time has flown by! My holiday was great by the way and we did end up at Disneyland so that’s a win, videos from that trip will be linked here.

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Disneyland part 3

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Lastly, I’m really working on improving the layout of my blog so if anyone knows some little tips that would be greatly appreciated. As always, my social media is open for feedback or just for a chat, I would love either.

Till next time,

Abby x

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A little University talk

Monday 4th July,

Dear Diary,

Let’s start with an update. First things first (I’m the realest), I finish my first year of sixth form on Thursday. That’s 3 DAYS WHATT!!! I honestly still feel 12 years old no way do I only have one year of education left. Its been a crazy year and in 2 weeks time I will be writing a post on everything I have learnt from my first year there, so look forward to that. Secondly, I have over 100 followers WOW thank you. That’s amazing I couldn’t have asked for more. Thirdly, and for me the most exciting, I WILL be starting my own YouTube channel! I will be uploading on a Saturday at around 7pm from the 16th July so head on over and subscribe please, I will sub back of course. I have literally wanted to do this since 2012 and so any support is greatly appreciated. Last;y, this summer is a summer of change. Starting from this Friday, I am going to live a much more healthy lifestyle and hopefully shift some unwanted weight. I will be recording my progress through this blog and hope to be a transformed person by the end of the summer. Now onto the actual post…

So I am now at the end of my AS to A2 transition weeks (the time between the first year and summer where we are introduced to the second year of sixth form- which is intense). Throughout these 4 weeks I have been bombarded with coursework and content for next years exams and its driving me crazy. I have had to complete an application to do an EPQ (Extended Project Qualification) which just requires more work and I’ve already had to write my first draft of my personal statement for university (OMG). I have applied for UCAS and shortlisted my universites and courses that I’m applying for, that’s terrifying!

Writing my personal statement was tough because you have to think about yourself and what makes you so great. All fun and games until you realise you’re a boring nerd who’s talents include: Finishing an entire season on netflix in one sitting, eating a whole tub of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream in one sitting and being able to cry on demand. Actually not on demand, or by choice, just all the time. hahhahah i’m kidding (a little).

I actually ended up asking for help with my first paragraph, seen as the furthest I could get was writing my name. Once I was past the dreaded first paragraph I was on a roll. The maximum was 4,000 characters and mine is near 5,000. Good luck future me on cutting that down. I had too much to write about ans my fingers actually ached from typing so fast. As the woman in the UCAS video says “no one knows you better than you do”, so write everything you can think of, even if you thing you’re the most boring person in the planet, some one else won’t. There’s always someone who finds you captivating even if its only your mam, so ask around and find out why you’re interesting! You’ll probably get some amazing answers.

If you are going into your last year of sixth form and are in the same position as me, leave a comment or message me on any of my social media that I’ll leave at the bottom of the page. Also if you are currently going to or at university (especially Leeds, Sunderland, York St.John or Newcastle) let me know what its like because maybe it’ll calm me down a bit. I’d love to hear whats happening at your schools or universities/colleges wherever you are in the world so don’t be a stranger!

Sorry for the crappy post this week but I’m suffering with hayfever (a petty illness i know but I get it really bad okay!) so I’m not feeling great and I’ve typed this whole post with a “I’M GONNA SNEEZE” face which I’m sure you all know of and my head hurts so goodnight and till next time,

Abby x

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Why you need to discuss hard feelings and how I learnt the hard way.

Monday 13th June 2016

Dear diary,

I completed my first day back at sixth form and I’m already sooo done with it but hey ho gotta carry on, 3 weeks and 3 days left.. but who’s counting?

So I was talking to my friend today who was telling me about an argument that she had with one of her closest friends and thankfully they apologized and made up , but this doesn’t always happen so smoothly. It reminded me of one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through. Last year I fell out with my BEST friend (ex i guess now). Sounds childish but the ending of a friendship can be just as heartbreaking as the end of a relationship, if not worse, which this one certainly was.

So in 2013 I met my best friend. She was new to my school and some of my friends were showing her around, so of course she was introduced to me. Then completely by coincidence we ended up sitting next to each other in multiple different lessons and quickly bonded over our weirdness and love of Selena Gomez. Over the next 2 years we made an unbreakable bond which meant a hell of a lot to me because she was the first proper best friend I had ever had. Before her I was always the third wheel who got in the way of other peoples friendships and never had my own close friend. This shattered my confidence and I learned to hate school because for me, it was a place of loneliness. I like to think that it wasn’t my personality that prevented me from getting a best friend but rather that my social anxiety (which i keep banging on about i know im sorry) actually meant that I was so shy that I never had the confidence to start a conversation with anyone. When I met my ex BFF I decided that she was gonna be the one and I put all my effort into getting close to her, which I did quite successfully if I do say so my self. Our friendship was the single best thing that’s ever came into my life. Sound super lame but its as if she was like a gift from God himself to help me gain confidence and then leave when the job was completed.

BUT obviously this isn’t a happy story.

This girl was a piece of work. We were from completely different places, countries in fact. Her family was super rich and mine was not, she was soooo much more popular than I was and ALLLLLLLLL of the boys preferred her, yep. I was that friend. She also had tons of friends from outside of our school, most from her old school. One in particular she became really close with, but only after she left that school. She started hanging out with her more and that sucked because it kinda just rubbed in my face that she had other friends and mine were.. lets say limited? yeah, that’ll work. She just seemed perfect and I guess I was jealous? Well if I could be her I certainly would, she even has a stunning boyfriend now surprise surprise. All of these negative feelings bottled up inside of me because I couldn’t tell her face to face. I couldn’t tell her because I was so scared that the friendship would end, and that was the last thing I wanted. Then one day, you guessed it. My big mouth couldn’t hold it all in anymore.

I got angry because she wouldn’t come to see my favourite band with me. Stupid and spoilt I know but when all these feeling are inside you, the littlest thing can set it all of. Like a ticking time bomb that could explode in an instant. All of these feelings were spilling out in quite an angry tone and she was very quick to defend herself I’ll tell you that. She was so in denial that it annoyed me more and the argument was very heated very quickly. We argued probably all day and then didn’t talk for about a week. Then I caved in and realised that I had ruined everything. Me being terrified of loosing her, I typed a huge apology which took me ages now that I think about it and it contained all of the love that I had for her and how much she meant to me. I’ll tell you a secret, I wasn’t sorry at all. I didn’t want to loose my BFF and if lying was the way to get her back then lying is what I would do. ooops, let that one slip. She didn’t take it well, in fact she told me that she never wanted to talk to me again. So I cried, I cried a lot for a long time and we didn’t talk again.

Until… A few days before we started sixth form she apologised. We agreed to be civil and for the first few days of sixth form we went back to normal. But then, plot twist, guess who else shows up at our sixth form. Her new BFF (which was the one I talked about from her old school). Yep. you can imagine how pissed i was. I hated this girl. I couldn’t bear to be around her and so me and my ex bff went back to hating each other. 2 against 1, not fair at all if you ask me but I eventually got through it. I have a bomb ass group of friends who I love dearly and although the spot for my BFF is still standing (feel from to fill that) I feel better than ever.

Sometimes bottling up your hostile feelings towards someone who you love can turn them into your worst enemy, TALK TO THEM FOR GODS SAKE! Work it out before it gets to late, if I had talked about my feelings then I may still be besties with her, of course I’d be sharing *sarcastic YEY*  but oh well that’s over now. If there is someone negative in your life please remove them A.S.A.P and even though it may take some getting used to (I’m still getting used to it, everytime I see them together I die a bit inside, sad times) it’s worth it, you don’t need the negativity.

It feels good to talk about this and hopefully in the future I can write about a new friend who means so much to me. One day.

remove the negative. remove the negative. remove the negative.

ALWAYS TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS, GOOD OR BAD.

Till next time,

Abby x

P.s Pwoah that was deep but it needed discussing. Expect more posts soon, I’ll try and make them good, maybe someone will read them hahahah

P.s.P.s I just read this through and it literally sounds like an extract from a young teens book, how cool would this be as a book?! Added to the bucket list which doesn’t actually exist. Also this post is quite long, congrats if you’re still reading. Anyways, as you were.