Life, Rants, Uncategorized

Let’s Get Personal.

I did have planned a little stocking fillers post for today but it seems like every other blogger has already beat me round the bush to that one so I decided to do something a little different. If you’ve read me older posts you’ll know that I’m not really that afraid to put how I feel online, I’m willing to share personal experiences in order to help others. Well over the past couple of days my life has went spiraling downhill and I’ve not seen the light yet, its still occurring. I thought that by sharing these feelings online that maybe I’d feel better, or one of you guys would feel better. In the future I hope to come back to posts like this and think about how much better my life is in that moment.

So here’s what happened.

My best friend has decided that she hates me. No reasoning. No prompt. She just hates me. She was a toxic person, full of negativity. I did everything she asked and didn’t ask for anything in return. I listened to her rants every single day and followed her around anywhere she wanted to go. Well tough luck to her now, she has no one to do that for her. We were fine 3 days ago, best friends as usual. This weekend I heard nothing from her butt she was at work so I forgave that, and I was busy so I’d forgotten to even text her. Yesterday she didn’t turn up to sixth form so I sent her a message asking where she was and if she was okay. No reply. Followed by her blocking me on Twitter. Why? I don’t know. I decided to let her cool down a bit because she was probably stressed. The next day in the class that the friend, our friend and I have together she sat in her usual seat. Fair enough. But the thing is that its between me and our other friend (who she is treating the same way, me and her have no clue whats going on!). So she sat between us for the full hour and a half and didn’t say one word, just angrily slammed her stuff around and pushed past us when leaving her seat. We both very nearly asked what was happening but I honestly thought she’d hit me so I left her.

About an hour after we finished sixth form I sent her a message that she couldn’t ignore. I told her that I was confused as to why she’s mad and that I would appreciate an explanation because I don’t know whats happened. She ignored didn’t she! Then blocked me on Instagram and on Facebook. Why? IDK!!!

I still want an explanation, and I don’t plan on talking to her until me and our friend have an apology because in my opinion the silent treatment is childish. Especially when we don’t know what we’ve done and she won’t tell us. I guess I’ll have to update the matter later when things have settled down. Writing this post is probably a mistake but I’m still not even sure whats happened myself. I just know its messed me right up and I don’t know whether to laugh or cry right now. Probably cry because she’s really going to make me out to be a horrid person and I’m not, I really try my best to be a pleasant person. I’ve lost really close friends before and the last thing I need right now is to lose another one. Either I’m the worst person on the planet or people just love to mess me up and leave me lonely. Whichever reason it is, I don’t enjoy it one bit.

If any of you reading this have experienced this before please do get in touch with advise or help as to how to not let this bring me down please, I’m struggling a lot.

Thanks for reading and I’m sorry that this was depressing and not in the Christmas spirit at all! Till tomorrow,

Abby x

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Garden Centre Festivities.

Aren’t garden centres just the most wonderful place to be at Christmas? If I wasn’t already feeling festive enough before, I certainly am more festive after today. I basically forced my family to take us to a garden centre about 30 minutes away from where we live after they scrapped the idea of visiting the massive Christmas market at the racecourse which I actually really wanted to go to. I wish I had my own car because I actually would’ve gone myself. It’s far too festive to miss out on!

I guess the garden centre will have to do for this year. I only settled because my mam promised to get the Christmas tree next Sunday! Exciting times.

When we arrived it was packed, everywhere is this time of year but it’s so worth it, right? From the moment we walked through the entrance till the moment we left there was festive goodness surrounding us. There was a walkthrough winter wonderland with lights, decorations, displays and Santa at the exit. I don’t care that I’m 17 I would’ve still met him, what put me off was the queue of 100 little kids all screaming, no thanks.

I got a little over excited and filled the basket with decorations for the tree, I’ve decided on a red and gold theme for the house this year; my parents are just going with it. I feel like every Christmas tree I’ve seen this year on Instagram, Snapchat and in Vlogmas videos have been silver so I’m being traditional and different this year, why not?

The Christmas tree section drove me mad because I knew we couldn’t get one even though they were so pretty and smelt so good. I tried my very best to convince the family that we needed one right now but obviously they weren’t convinced.

We were then faced with the struggles of finding seats and the money for overpriced garden centre food in the café. Garden centre food is a hit or miss situation, this particular one was a definite miss. The only veggie option they had was mushroom based and I’m not a fan of fungi if I’m going to be completely honest with you, they make me gag. So I settled with some Kettle chip crisps (YUM) and the most wonderful hot chocolate, overflowing with cream and chocolate sugar.

After that we went home and I caught up with Vlogmas videos before having an omg amazing roast although it’s just veggies for me I still love it). I am loving Vlogmas this year! Usually I get sick of them but there are some real goodins this year. I’m especially loving Niomi Smart’s Vlogmas. Considering that this is her first year doing it, I really think that hers are the most perfect combination of raw/ real life but also some really fun events. For example when she was home putting up the Christmas tree with her mum, Grandma and sister it was fun to see her in her day o day life but being backstage at the Victoria Secret show, exploring Paris and being on a panel at beautycon is really fun to watch. I hope she carries on doing vlogs.

Are there any youtubers or bloggers that you are loving right now? Leave them in the comments and I’ll check them out (once I’ve done my English coursework that I’ve been procrastinating all day). Hope you’ve been enjoying Blogmas so far and enjoy December!

Till tomorrow,

Abby x

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Travel, Uncategorized

OFF TO FRANCE

Saturday 23rd July 6.36AM

Dear diary,

I am so sorry that there was no post on Monday, I honestly forgot and my the time I realised, it was too late and the post would’ve been awful. I have some good post plans ready for this summer that I’m so excited to share with you guys.

So it’s currently 6.38AM and I’m awake in bed typing this post because in a few hours I will be making my way to a place called Normandy in France. That means one thing and one thing only… The Waughs are off on their holidays. We will be gone for 13 days (I think?) but expect some posts even if they are just short ones because I’ll need am excuse to go to the wifi hotspots ( mainly because I WILL need a break from my fam at some points hahahah).

From what I’ve read, Normandy is quite a rural but beautiful place with lots of history, museums and stunning architecture so you better be excited for some pictures and blog posts about what I get up to.

Again, sorry about this weeks post but I promise I will catch up on posts and most weeks when I return from France there will be more than one post a week.

I’m almost at 300 followers as well… That’s crazy so thank you so much, it means a lot when people read these.

Lastly, feel free to comment as always or message me on any of my social media, don’t be shy. If any of you have been to Normandy or anywhere near it please leave a comment with suggestions of where to go, that would be much appreciated. Thanks for reading, till next time,

Abby x

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Anna Saccone necklace review

11th July 2016

Dear diary,

As some of you guys may know, it was my birthday just under a month ago. One thing that I asked for from my generous parents was a necklace with my star sign on it (Gemini) from Anna SacconeJoly’s range with Stilnest.com. The necklace arrived a week late which sucked but we left it a little late to order it, it takes around 3-4 weeks to arrive as it needs to be shipped etc. My necklace is a Gemini gold silver plated medium length necklace…. and I loveeee it! It looks amazing with every outfit and I’ve had many compliments about it. The products is slightly pricey but it is amazing quality and I can tell it will last many years, so worth the money if you’re willing to take the splurge.

There are silver and rose gold options also available but I decided to go for the gold as this is what Anna wears and it looks so lovely and flattering on her. The package was  very lovely, with a little not from the company telling the context of the range and giving a touching picture of Anna and her father, which I have kept (I hope that’s not creepy haha).

So I’ve had the necklace for a few weeks now and I’ve worn it almost every day! It pulls every outfit together and makes it appear that I’ve put a lot more effort in to choosing my outfit then I actually have.

Overall, it is a fantastic purchase, a durable and lovely piece of jewelry that I would recommend having in your collection. Well done Anna, I for one love your collection and admire you as a person. (if you happen to be reading this).

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A little note… I’ve broken up for summer holidays now. Job hunting, holiday packing and trying to start youtube! Exciting times but that does mean I’m not sure how often posts will be. There will be AT LEAST one per week. Mondays will not stop, I think I can do more, maybe 2 per week. I’m just not sure when that second day will be, it may be different each week. Please do talk to me on any of my social media, tell me you came from my blog! Need some pals hahaha. Ps. I’m filming my first YT vid tomorrow YEY!!!

Till next time,

Abby x

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A little University talk

Monday 4th July,

Dear Diary,

Let’s start with an update. First things first (I’m the realest), I finish my first year of sixth form on Thursday. That’s 3 DAYS WHATT!!! I honestly still feel 12 years old no way do I only have one year of education left. Its been a crazy year and in 2 weeks time I will be writing a post on everything I have learnt from my first year there, so look forward to that. Secondly, I have over 100 followers WOW thank you. That’s amazing I couldn’t have asked for more. Thirdly, and for me the most exciting, I WILL be starting my own YouTube channel! I will be uploading on a Saturday at around 7pm from the 16th July so head on over and subscribe please, I will sub back of course. I have literally wanted to do this since 2012 and so any support is greatly appreciated. Last;y, this summer is a summer of change. Starting from this Friday, I am going to live a much more healthy lifestyle and hopefully shift some unwanted weight. I will be recording my progress through this blog and hope to be a transformed person by the end of the summer. Now onto the actual post…

So I am now at the end of my AS to A2 transition weeks (the time between the first year and summer where we are introduced to the second year of sixth form- which is intense). Throughout these 4 weeks I have been bombarded with coursework and content for next years exams and its driving me crazy. I have had to complete an application to do an EPQ (Extended Project Qualification) which just requires more work and I’ve already had to write my first draft of my personal statement for university (OMG). I have applied for UCAS and shortlisted my universites and courses that I’m applying for, that’s terrifying!

Writing my personal statement was tough because you have to think about yourself and what makes you so great. All fun and games until you realise you’re a boring nerd who’s talents include: Finishing an entire season on netflix in one sitting, eating a whole tub of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream in one sitting and being able to cry on demand. Actually not on demand, or by choice, just all the time. hahhahah i’m kidding (a little).

I actually ended up asking for help with my first paragraph, seen as the furthest I could get was writing my name. Once I was past the dreaded first paragraph I was on a roll. The maximum was 4,000 characters and mine is near 5,000. Good luck future me on cutting that down. I had too much to write about ans my fingers actually ached from typing so fast. As the woman in the UCAS video says “no one knows you better than you do”, so write everything you can think of, even if you thing you’re the most boring person in the planet, some one else won’t. There’s always someone who finds you captivating even if its only your mam, so ask around and find out why you’re interesting! You’ll probably get some amazing answers.

If you are going into your last year of sixth form and are in the same position as me, leave a comment or message me on any of my social media that I’ll leave at the bottom of the page. Also if you are currently going to or at university (especially Leeds, Sunderland, York St.John or Newcastle) let me know what its like because maybe it’ll calm me down a bit. I’d love to hear whats happening at your schools or universities/colleges wherever you are in the world so don’t be a stranger!

Sorry for the crappy post this week but I’m suffering with hayfever (a petty illness i know but I get it really bad okay!) so I’m not feeling great and I’ve typed this whole post with a “I’M GONNA SNEEZE” face which I’m sure you all know of and my head hurts so goodnight and till next time,

Abby x

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Why you need to discuss hard feelings and how I learnt the hard way.

Monday 13th June 2016

Dear diary,

I completed my first day back at sixth form and I’m already sooo done with it but hey ho gotta carry on, 3 weeks and 3 days left.. but who’s counting?

So I was talking to my friend today who was telling me about an argument that she had with one of her closest friends and thankfully they apologized and made up , but this doesn’t always happen so smoothly. It reminded me of one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through. Last year I fell out with my BEST friend (ex i guess now). Sounds childish but the ending of a friendship can be just as heartbreaking as the end of a relationship, if not worse, which this one certainly was.

So in 2013 I met my best friend. She was new to my school and some of my friends were showing her around, so of course she was introduced to me. Then completely by coincidence we ended up sitting next to each other in multiple different lessons and quickly bonded over our weirdness and love of Selena Gomez. Over the next 2 years we made an unbreakable bond which meant a hell of a lot to me because she was the first proper best friend I had ever had. Before her I was always the third wheel who got in the way of other peoples friendships and never had my own close friend. This shattered my confidence and I learned to hate school because for me, it was a place of loneliness. I like to think that it wasn’t my personality that prevented me from getting a best friend but rather that my social anxiety (which i keep banging on about i know im sorry) actually meant that I was so shy that I never had the confidence to start a conversation with anyone. When I met my ex BFF I decided that she was gonna be the one and I put all my effort into getting close to her, which I did quite successfully if I do say so my self. Our friendship was the single best thing that’s ever came into my life. Sound super lame but its as if she was like a gift from God himself to help me gain confidence and then leave when the job was completed.

BUT obviously this isn’t a happy story.

This girl was a piece of work. We were from completely different places, countries in fact. Her family was super rich and mine was not, she was soooo much more popular than I was and ALLLLLLLLL of the boys preferred her, yep. I was that friend. She also had tons of friends from outside of our school, most from her old school. One in particular she became really close with, but only after she left that school. She started hanging out with her more and that sucked because it kinda just rubbed in my face that she had other friends and mine were.. lets say limited? yeah, that’ll work. She just seemed perfect and I guess I was jealous? Well if I could be her I certainly would, she even has a stunning boyfriend now surprise surprise. All of these negative feelings bottled up inside of me because I couldn’t tell her face to face. I couldn’t tell her because I was so scared that the friendship would end, and that was the last thing I wanted. Then one day, you guessed it. My big mouth couldn’t hold it all in anymore.

I got angry because she wouldn’t come to see my favourite band with me. Stupid and spoilt I know but when all these feeling are inside you, the littlest thing can set it all of. Like a ticking time bomb that could explode in an instant. All of these feelings were spilling out in quite an angry tone and she was very quick to defend herself I’ll tell you that. She was so in denial that it annoyed me more and the argument was very heated very quickly. We argued probably all day and then didn’t talk for about a week. Then I caved in and realised that I had ruined everything. Me being terrified of loosing her, I typed a huge apology which took me ages now that I think about it and it contained all of the love that I had for her and how much she meant to me. I’ll tell you a secret, I wasn’t sorry at all. I didn’t want to loose my BFF and if lying was the way to get her back then lying is what I would do. ooops, let that one slip. She didn’t take it well, in fact she told me that she never wanted to talk to me again. So I cried, I cried a lot for a long time and we didn’t talk again.

Until… A few days before we started sixth form she apologised. We agreed to be civil and for the first few days of sixth form we went back to normal. But then, plot twist, guess who else shows up at our sixth form. Her new BFF (which was the one I talked about from her old school). Yep. you can imagine how pissed i was. I hated this girl. I couldn’t bear to be around her and so me and my ex bff went back to hating each other. 2 against 1, not fair at all if you ask me but I eventually got through it. I have a bomb ass group of friends who I love dearly and although the spot for my BFF is still standing (feel from to fill that) I feel better than ever.

Sometimes bottling up your hostile feelings towards someone who you love can turn them into your worst enemy, TALK TO THEM FOR GODS SAKE! Work it out before it gets to late, if I had talked about my feelings then I may still be besties with her, of course I’d be sharing *sarcastic YEY*  but oh well that’s over now. If there is someone negative in your life please remove them A.S.A.P and even though it may take some getting used to (I’m still getting used to it, everytime I see them together I die a bit inside, sad times) it’s worth it, you don’t need the negativity.

It feels good to talk about this and hopefully in the future I can write about a new friend who means so much to me. One day.

remove the negative. remove the negative. remove the negative.

ALWAYS TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS, GOOD OR BAD.

Till next time,

Abby x

P.s Pwoah that was deep but it needed discussing. Expect more posts soon, I’ll try and make them good, maybe someone will read them hahahah

P.s.P.s I just read this through and it literally sounds like an extract from a young teens book, how cool would this be as a book?! Added to the bucket list which doesn’t actually exist. Also this post is quite long, congrats if you’re still reading. Anyways, as you were.

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An Update

12th June 2016

Dear diary,

Okay so you know how I mentioned how i’m bad at keeping a diary? Yeah, it’s been a while.

Since I last posted I have sat all of my AS exams (which required days of revision, or should I say it required a lot of pretending to revise), I shouldn’t make excuses I know but I have been very busy. As I only have 4 more weeks of sixth form left until September I thought that I’d get back on the blogging band wagon because it’s something that I actually enjoy doing. I’m also considering starting a YouTube channel over the summer as I love the idea of having all these memories that you can look back at and reminisce about, call me conventional I get it.

I’ve also been nagged about universities more than ever, research has been done, prospectuses have been ordered and decisions are being made. I know that I want to study a Media degree as it is what I enjoy and want to pursue as a career one day. I’m currently looking at the Media and Communication degree that Leeds uni has to off and I love it! I’m booking for an open day and I am desperate to study this course as it contains all the things I love to study in media. Only issue being the entry requirements, AAB, not saying it’s impossible but i’m gonna have to work my little ass off to get those grades because i’m not studying the easiest subjects. I also like the sound of media degrees at Sunderland and York St. John which are my backup plans as they are easier to get in to. I’m still so conflicted about uni but the research is good because i@m most likely going to attend uni.

On another note, I applied for another job yesterday which I actually would like to do. Over the Christmas holidays I worked in Cath Kidston and even though it was a nice work environment, I decided that retail was not for me, my social anxiety went through the roof and the constant interaction with strangers who were expecting me to know everything even though I had only worked there once a week for a few weeks was undoubtedly stressful. The job I applied for is room cleaning in a hotel, probs some peoples worst nightmare but I love to clean and there’s not too much interaction. Plus, you’re always busy which would defiantly make the shifts go quicker. I probably won’t even get the job but the idea of applying has made my mam lay off me a tad about getting a job hahaha.

It’s my birthday on Friday!! Friday 17th June 2016 will be the day I turn 17, alas! I’m getting a set of driving lessons which is terrifying but I am forcing myself to learn to drive because after getting the bus everywhere for 7 years you learn to despise every public transport in the world. I mean i’m sure its fine but the buses in the North East are filled with smelly people with loud kids.. no thanks mate, I’d rather not sit next to your wet dog who stinks of shit, will catch the next bus which will arrive in about 4 more hours. I’m actually excited for this birthday even though i’m not really celebrating it, season 4 of OITNB comes out plus the season 4 finale of Orphan Black, who could ask for more am i right??

One last thing, i’m back at sixth form TOMORROW. I’ve had 4 weeks off for study leave which has most defiantly been more of a leave than a study. woops. I managed to watch every season of Skins and a lot of youtube vids but I still turned up to my exams, which is more than some people can say haha. It should be okay its only 3 weeks and 4 days but whose counting right?  actually want to catch up with people and get back into routine although i’ll be over it be Tuesday. Also, my fave person Adrianna isn’t coming back to sixth form which is devastating because i love her so much and we’ve sat next to each other in media all year, the lols where good. I will defo be meeting up with her sometime because I refuse to accept that this is the end of our friendship.

Oh and I nearly forgot to mention, a few weeks ago on the 2nd of June I met CASPAR FRIKIN LEE! I love his videos and when I saw Gateshead on his book tour I had to go, I could write a post about the experience with photos if you’d like to see that, I may also do another one next week because on the 18th, me and Maddie (from my first every post) are meeting JC AND FRIKIN KIAN hahahah, happy birthday to me from me (and sorry to my bank account, i’m now broke) let me know if you’d like to see that, or just if anyone actually reads my posts at all lol.

I hope to post a lot more, maybe daily. M A Y B E. Don’t hold that to me. As i said before, even if no one reads this, they’re nice to look back on and reminisce about, will post more from now on. Sorry this was literally all over the place, I feel like an old granny having a catch up with her old granny friends who may or may not actually be reading hahahhaha.

Till next time,

Abby x

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Saturday 9th April 2016

Dear diary,

I am aware that I haven’t posted for 12 days, that is the exact reason why I can not and do not actually keep a diary. Truth is that I have been doing absolutely nothing and have no excuse for not posting. For being so rubbish I decided to to a tag so that you can get to know me better. That is is anyone reads this.

Did you wake up cranky?

This morning, surprisingly not, I was quite impressed that I woke earlier than 11am to be honest but every other morning… Yes. I am not a morning person.

Would you date an 18 year old at your current age?

Yes, I’m almost 17 so I think that would be fine.

Do you prefer being friends with boys or girls?

I have no preference. Most of my friends are girls but being friends with boys can be fun, they don’t mind farting or weirdness and they’re much more likely to keep a secret.

Would you ever smile at a stranger?

Of course, I do it more often than I should even just to people I walk past in the street. I don’t do it all the time though because for the most part I just get blanked or get a strange look in response.

How do you look right now?

Like an absolute nutter. I’m in Minnie mouse PJs with a green face fask on and wet hair.. Great look.

How often do you listen to music?

I like to fall asleep listening to music and also any bus journey must include music, and I use a lot of busses.

Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Jeans but only because it makes me look more put together and less tired than I actually am. I wish I owned more sweats, I definitely prefer them over jeans.

Do you think your life will dramatically change before 2017?

It could but I wouldn’t expect it. Obviously anything could happen but I can only hope that if something does chamge, that it is for the better.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?

I’m the best! Years of practice. It’s very hard to read me and most of the time no one can guess how I’m feeling or what I’m thinking.

Do you care if people talk badly of you?

It depends who it is. I care if anyone talks bad about me but I’m a lot more inclined to feel bad about it if I have and have had a personal relationship with that person. I can usually shove it off, I’m rarely upset.

Name something that you have to do tomorrow?

Finish my work and revise for going back to sixth form on Monday seen as my exams are in like 5 weeks. Uh oh.

Name something that you’ve disliked about today?

The fact that I didn’t finish my work and revise for sixth form on Monday like I had planned.

Are you nice to everyone?

I’d like to think that I am, only time I’m not nice is if I have a reason to.

Does anyone hate you?

Only a handful of people spring to mind, ex friends but that can’t really be changed now and I’m not phased by it.

Are you social or antisocial?

I come across as very antisocial but that’s because I’ve always been quite shy and also due to the fact that my friends live ages away from me. I’m actually a really social person but not a lot of people get to see that side to me.

Are you a jealous person?

Yes, but only when I give people 100% and I only get part of that back because they have someone else that they’re giving 100% to, that annoys me.

If you had to delete one year of your life forever, which one would it be?

2011. By far the worst year of my life and I was only 11 years old. I made a lot of mistakes and was very unhappy that year. I try not to ever think about it.

Did you have a dream last night?

A nightmare actually. I won’t go into depth as it could be offensive but basically Donald Trump won the election and something terrible happened in the shopping centre and my sister and I almost died, I never got to see the ending.

Is your life different to what it was 2 years ago?

Completely. New school, new friends, I had a comfortable routine back then and the best friends I could’ve had but now that’s all changed.

Do you repeat things that have happened in your head?

All the time, the good and bad memories. Usually when I’m in the shower or before I go to bed.

What do you want to accomplish in life?

I want to be successful and happy so that my family (if I have one) van be stable and full of joy. I want people to be happy and if I can make that happen then that’s what I want to do.

That was deep, I’m going to do some more posts like this soon but I have some planned for the next few weeks. Till next time,

Abby x

Travel

An unexpected religious experience

Thursday 17th and Friday 18th March 2016

Dear Diary,

“Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.”- Buddha

I had never felt as consciously pessimistic about any trip in my life. I had agreed to go on a two day Buddhist ‘extravaganza’ to the Samye Ling Buddhist Monastery in Scotland as part of my A level religious studies course, I wasn’t exactly enthused. Luckily I had my friend Madison to go with, who was equally pessimistic about the whole situation and knew how to make every situation hilarious (which doesn’t always go down well in a temple). The thoughts that sprung to mind about what I thought the trip would be like were mainly: cold, rainy, cringy and awkward which certainly isn’t my idea of fun. Let’s just say that this place absolutely defied my expectations.

The 2 and a half hour bus journey wasn’t the best. It was cramped and loud but that’s where Maddie stepped in to distract me and calmed my anxiety about the whole situation (because stepping outside of my comfort zone sends my anxiety through the roof!). We chatted the WHOLE time, which is unusual for me as I’m quite a timid person around people who I haven’t known for a long time and by the time we arrived, my nerves were well under control. The weather when we arrived was beautiful, the first proper sun I had seen all year and made for some pretty pics.

For the remainder of the trip we had a tour, ate some Buddhist meals (which weren’t great ngl), lots of pringles (because the meals tasted like crap), saw some Buddhist practices and had a q+a session with a nun. It was so surreal and different but in a way it was the most calming experience, my anxiety didn’t spark at any point. We were taught how to meditate properly and it has seriously inspired me to include meditation in my life more often as it is a life saver for those who suffer with anxiety.

I now have an incredible amount of respect for Buddhism and I feel like their teachings and practices will really come in useful for me at times. It’s amazing to see how some people have completely devoted their lives to this religion and showing kindness and compassion at all times, this is something that seemed so hard to me but with the right mindfulness it is possible.

To show my respect to the religion, I now wear a red string around my left wrist to represent compassion and as a reminder to always have right mindfulness.

Lastly, I apologize for the poor writing skills. I have put off writing this first post for weeks now but I really do want to keep this blog updated. I hope this first topic was a goodin’. I’ll leave you with some pictures from the trip. Till next time,

Abby x